Open eyes... realize there is light outside... look at watch to confirm it is not a hallucination... curse under breath (that was rather impulsive)... say the Dua for starting the fast... turn over... go to sleep again.
That was little after 6am (yesterday). Now at 2.45am, having got home from office about a half hour ago, I am thinking if I want to risk that again, or should I keep awake till 5am for suhur? There is no doubt in my mind that if I go to sleep now, the chances of waking up at 4.30am are not too high. As a statistician, I would not bet on my odds. Then again, I would not bet on my odds to get to office on time either if I don't sleep now.
The day actually went by surprisingly well given the lack of nutrition. Possibly even better than the day before, when I was late for a meeting in the morning and decided to run most of the way to work and had to spend the rest of the day feeling pretty thirsty.
I have to admit though, AlhamdulIllah, so far I haven't had a hard time dealing with the hunger or the thirst. The thing I really feel is the lack of energy! I was remembering today how when I was 14, I would go out in the afternoon and practice with my basketball team for a couple of hours while fasting. We would be done more than an hour before iftaar time and it just wouldn't matter.
I like to think I'm not too old, but I can't help but notice the difference in energy. I miss it. And its only been 4 days...